this side of the sun...

finally starting to do some work. Thought it would never happen! Its late again and these days im not so much of a nocturnal anymore. I get up on my own around 10..., shite...this is turning out to be a boring post so i'll just stop here, save us both the pain and suffering :P

be back later with a more interesting post,

The thing is...

My birthday is coming up...i was born on 6th Dec 1983, which means i will be 21 soon. Should i freak out or what? actually im quite happy with my current situation and not worried about anything really. I was more worried turning 20 than i am right now, which might seem odd. I think its mostly because things are flowing in the right direction at the moment and i dont have any real problems to worry about.

Improving on my japanese i feel, getting more speaking practice in, have recently been chatting with kaori in japanese and that it quite fun actually. Learning languages is so fun! I'm happy i know languages (more than 1)...makes learning more languages easier + u can communicate with people from different cultures etc. Picked up spanish recently as well, which would make that my 7th language...god! can i really handle that many? i'm hardly fluent in japanese yet and less than japanese i'm hardly capable in french (my 5th). The problem with japanese is just the kanji's, the major obstacle in learning to master the language fully...so much easier with european languages where u already know how to read. And that makes it somewhat easier, take my word for it.

First shift at Subway on saturday, thanks to subway i might be able to go to japan in the spring. I really hope i will be able to go, would be such a blast! It would be my second time in less than 12 months :D its just too cheap to miss out on, £350 for a return ticket? who can afford NOT to go...

probably squeeze a visit to maria in there somewhere aswell ;) thank someone for the lengthy holidays granted to students! that's all for now i think, nothing more to report. My eyes are starting to hurt abit so i'm calling in early tonight, in hopes of getting alot done tomorrow.

Good night!

the way of the sub

Hola!

I got the job at subway, yippie!! i'm working at subway, im working at subway...i hope that means free subs for the people, but im not sure. What i do know is that it means more (much needed) money pour yours sincerely. Im so short on cash im starting to worry again, i really needed this job. Start working 16h a week, which will bring in about £80/week, and ill probably get more shifts later on. That means more trips to spain and more things i can buy, and it may also mean i can go to japan in spring after all, i was afraid because of my lack of funds i wouldnt be able to but now there is, once again, light at the end of the tunnel...

praise for "subwway"!!!

やった！！

Emil screws up again...

I can't believe the stupid things i say and the situations that arise because of it...I might have caused such a situation just today with maria. And now i'm feeling shit :/ Sometimes i wonder if there's a limit to my stupidity, and it kills me not being able to get a reply to text messages i send her, my phone is being repaired so no one can get in touch with me. Merdre!

everything just starts out as a innocent comment on stuff that have been dwelling in the back of my mind, and they slowly evovle into bigger things until they explode into irreversible situations like these, why cant i just shut up?!

i'll have to talk with her again tomorrow! dont really want this to end because of my impatience and idiocy..

what's new? I dont know...u tell me!

so i havent done much lately!!ok??? there's not much to tell, ok??



I need to sleep, should stop updating my blog late at night, that would stop me from complaining all the time that i need sleep. I do need sleep but i also get more than enuff of it. Especially lately, dont even need a frickin alarm anymore, just wake up in time anyway.
Not much longer until maria comes here, only 21 days... :( which is quite alot but not quite as long as the next time ill see her after that, mid-february, hopefully ill be too busy to think too much of the time passing.
Finally got a call from Subway about an interview for the part-time job, would be great if i got the job, really need the money. At this specific point in time, earning £5/h sounds to me like earning a fortune/hour, which can only be a good thing. Working 12h a week would give me £60 (if my maths is right) and £60 is alot of money to me right now...haha, i didnt even think about it now. If i started working i could maybe go see maria before i leave for sweden. See what happens, or i could just buy some Eddie Izzard dvds with the money. He's hilarous.

Sleep...おやすみ！

The novel that got emil reading again...

I never thought i'd feel like reading every minute of the day again. I used to devour books, mostly fiction. Nowadays it feels like a waste of time, though i also used to frown upon those who said that. But a solution has presented itself, books such as the one im reading now, "The Da Vinci Code" by Dan Brown, that as well as being a very intruiging novel is also full of interesting facts. A very good example, the extremely fascinating phenomen of the "Divine Proportion", explained in detail in the story itself. I look forward to reading more books like this. I also want to read some books on specific events in history, like the Iran-Iraq war, all i know is what i have been told by my parents which unfortunately does not provide an unbiased retelling of the events. Nevertheless, the reason it all started interests me, along with the history of the Kurds. For some reason i want to know more about my linage and the history of where i come. I just hope i can squeeze this into my already tight schedule.
In less than a month now i will have completed the 20th year of my life here in this place. I can only say that this year has been full of surprises, mostly good, and i hope the next year will be equally as rewarding. I have grown as a person as well i think, for better or worse :D
Wouldn't change anything about myself or my life. Maybe i could study abit more but thats an ongoing problem so it doesnt fit in with the current topic :p

photo from Santander...

Promised picture...




one of the many beaches in santander.

Back in Lesta...

Hello party people, Im back!!!! Spain was super duper. Im abit hyper low ish kinda high at the moment, went to bed at 23 last night and got up at 5 am to finish my essay so im on doing everything fast for some reason, it might be cuz im quite tired and want to get more tired so i can sleep. Though if i sleep now ill get up at about the same time i did today and that experience is not something i want to do again. 5 am is cold!! I'll post some pics on each new post even if it doesnt have anything to do with spain.

Still have a B&W i havent developed yet and there are about a dussin photos yet to take on the roll im on. I will probably put the digitals on a cd today and take it in tomorrow to develop along with the blacks. I'm abit restless now. The internet in the house is acting up again so im using "the wireless". thank god for whoever is streaming it!! thanks and sorry!

Arrived and happy as...

one can be really, having a great time so far. And we havent actually left the house yet to see the city. I think that says alot about this place, dont u? ;) The trip was not as good tho, first of all i missed my 21.15 train from leicester to london so i had to catch the next one which changed my route to a more unconvenient one, namely staying at liverpool street until they close (01) and hanging around london until they open again (04). There was this 24h cafe across the street so i went there and chilled for a while. Met some nice italian people (it was quite packed in the beginning so i had to share my table), and then tried to do some work but it just wasnt happening. Starting to feel it wasnt such a good idea to leave the essay for the trip. I did abit last night but nothing much. Also i met this really cool guy on the train. The reception was shite on our mobiles and we were both trying to talk so after a while we just gave it up...but it turns out that he´s an animation director who is quite distinguished in the industry. He´s done alot of work for Cartoon Network apparently, and he named "Dexters Laboratory", thats show is SO fun! I couldnt believe it :D I told him about my little knack for drawing and artsy stuff and that i tried to get into art colleges and stuff...gotta get something to eat, finish it this off soon!

Posting from hell

Okay, im afraid this "posting more" thing is not really working out, it just seems i have to much to do. And when i don't have anything to do i don't spend it writing here, which i should really. I've been freaking out about my essay all weekend and now im totally calm. Too calm, I could've gotten alot done today but ended up doing absolutely nothing. I'm still trying to get hold of the last reference. It feels like everything's resting on that one reference. All of the references seems to refer to that one, that's why it feels it's very important! ;)
Got my SLR back today, in anticipation of my Spain trip on friday. For better or worse, the film currently in the camera is a b&w one. Last time i went to develop BW rolls i ended up paying ALOT (think 300%+) more. I was totally surprised. I had to pay but thought perhaps i wouldnt take BW photos for awhile. Hopefully its not as expensive here in England. In the worst case scenario i'll just have to develop them myself in the lab. Time is something i don't have alot of though.

Sleeeepy....ZzzzZzzzz....