Sunday, January 18

back in bla...



Soo..It's been nearly 3 months now (feels like a lot longer...) and I haven't had any meat to eat. I've been doing well. I think I'm past the difficult part now, I don't crave meat anymore...was a bit challenging in the beginning but I overcame. AND, i'm positive that I won't eat meat ever again.

so two hurrays for me and one for my bro who I have managed to convert also...no, two hurrays for him too because he has done better than I thought he would. I underestimated you brother. You did well...

In other news,

I'll be doing what I've been wanting to do for a mighty long time now and that is to go to Japan and LIVE&WORK! It shall be the greatest adventure that I have been on to date and I look forward to it very much! I'm currently saving up for my ticket and some starter cash and as soon as I've got that I'm off to the promised land...In the meantime I've got to brush up on my, by now, fossilised Japanese. For that I've signed up for a beginner's course in Japanese at Gothenburg Uni. I won't have time to finish it but it's very basic Japanese so it won't really matter. I'm very familiar with the basics so it's mostly to get me into the whole thing again.

Between March-May I'm off...!

Signing out...

Friday, October 10

Stopped eating meat/pork/chicken, why?

Because of this shit and other acts like it. Don't matter if it's not happening in Sweden, which i don't doubt it does, this movement can only be stopped by removing the demand for these products, i believe. Start weening yourself off meats people!

And AMERICA, if you elect McCain to be your next president I will be mighty disappointed in you. Just watch the debates and you'll see how inept he is.

Peace out






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Call on Hormel to make changes for animals!

Thursday, August 21

Homosexuality

I was just thinking about this time when my brother and I went to a gay club. Apparently my brother had heard from friends that gay clubs can be real good places to pick up hot numbers of the opposite sex. These girls go to gay club cause they get left alone, i.e not a bunch of guys coming up and bothering and shit. you get the point. anyway, at said club I saw, not surprisingly, two middle-aged men making out. Even though I was well aware I might see some of that it still surprised me, just seeing it. It didn't help that these were two MEN, say around my dads age. It made it all that more weird.

so, I was having a smoke out my roomwindow, and I got to thinking of that time and at first I had much the same reaction I had the first time, disgust. And then I thought, "why I is it so disgusting to me", really, why is it disgusting...? In my mind, I'm thinking it's got alot, if not everything, to do with upbringing and the general social zeitgeist. We're brought up, from day 1, that it's man and woman. That's it. Gradually you also "learn" that two men or two women (for some reason it seems female homosexuality isn't as bad...why is that?) having "relations" is wrong, if not also bad. Growing up in such an environment it shouldn't surprise you to meet people holding such beliefs...right. How...hmm, can you be born with this heterosexual pursuit? That you instincivly know that your penis is supposed to go into a woman, how would that look if you grew up in an environment with only men...? wouldn't you assume to insert your thing somewhere else. Hmm, i'm still trying to figure things out so it might not seem like much. All these things..., they make me think that this "disgust" people feel towards gays is temporary. That sounded like i just fell upon something grand and unique. I realise that it's probably neither.

As more and more people "come out", and are accepted in society I really think we might see a day where homosexuality is right as rain...hmmm, yea, that.

And no, i'm not gay. just pondering the matter, and it really did make me think about it. Works well if you can allow yourself to question your own core-beliefs and values. If you can move beyond yourself then reasoning about this much more fruitful and stimulating.

Sunday, May 18

Origins of the Salute

lite intressant fakta som jag uppmärksammade när jag såg "The Last Castle" med Robert Redford tidigare ikväll. Historia är något av en av mina favoritämnen. Jag letar information mest på wikipedia, nätets bibliotek. Vanliga sök är stadsnamn och deras ursprung, stora figurer i historien och deras liv och leverne, blivit en del amerikanska namn på sistone, Thomas Jefferson, Washington, Franklin t.ex. Amerikansk historia är väldigt intressant faktiskt tycker jag. För det mesta kring statens begynnelse och vad och hur det gick till. Rent historiskt intressant tycker jag.

"There are a number of origins of the military greeting of saluting. In the age of chivalry the knights were all mounted and wore steel armour, which covered the body completely. When two friendly knights met it was the custom for each to raise the visor and expose his face to the view of the other. This was always done with the right hand, the left being used to hold the reins. It was a significant gesture of friendship and confidence, since it exposed the features and also removed the right hand from the vicinity of a weapon (sword). Also in ancient times the freemen of Europe were allowed to carry arms: when two freemen met, each would raise his right hand to show that he held no weapons in it and that the meeting was friendly."

- WOFF Chris Dunne,
Air Force Warrant Officer Disciplinary

Friday, February 1

Thursday, November 8

get real, get stressed

"Buy fresh fruit and put it in a bowl.
Then watch it rot. This will make you
feel bad because:
1. you're wasting money
2. you're failing at something that's good for you"

"Keep a photo of a past lover
somewhere your current love is
bound to find it"

"If you're not getting anywhere with
a task that is becoming increasingly
frustrating, don't stop. On no account
walk away from it.
Research shows that the more stressed
you are the more likely you are to solve
the problem"

Wednesday, November 7

in class today: first stabs at poems

my abscence of thought

sitting in class again,
mind is empty again,
speechless again, thoughtless.
boneless, spineless,
again.

my expectations, their expectations,
his expectations, her expectations.

I have no thoughts, have I no thoughts,
why have I none?

when did they leave, why?
did I take you for granted,
were you not wanted?

sometimes you return, reminding me
were you ever only mine, only my own?

who do you belong to, to whom do you belong?
you come, and you go away,
why don't you stay?


the seeds of wonder

when you come I cower,
when you go I wonder,
right now I ask, but in my heart,
I know, I'm void.

sometimes I ponder,
I ponder what others might wonder
then, from under,
suddenly,
I am asunder.

The Raven

not sure why, but this poem appeals to me. I hope you enjoy it as much as i do.

The Raven by Edgar A. Poe

Once upon a midnight dreary, while I pondered weak and weary,
Over many a quaint and curious volume of forgotten lore,
While I nodded, nearly napping, suddenly there came a tapping,
As of some one gently rapping, rapping at my chamber door.
`'Tis some visitor,' I muttered, `tapping at my chamber door -
Only this, and nothing more.'

Ah, distinctly I remember it was in the bleak December,
And each separate dying ember wrought its ghost upon the floor.
Eagerly I wished the morrow; - vainly I had sought to borrow
From my books surcease of sorrow - sorrow for the lost Lenore -
For the rare and radiant maiden whom the angels named Lenore -
Nameless here for evermore.

And the silken sad uncertain rustling of each purple curtain
Thrilled me - filled me with fantastic terrors never felt before;
So that now, to still the beating of my heart, I stood repeating
`'Tis some visitor entreating entrance at my chamber door -
Some late visitor entreating entrance at my chamber door; -
This it is, and nothing more,'

Presently my soul grew stronger; hesitating then no longer,
`Sir,' said I, `or Madam, truly your forgiveness I implore;
But the fact is I was napping, and so gently you came rapping,
And so faintly you came tapping, tapping at my chamber door,
That I scarce was sure I heard you' - here I opened wide the door; -
Darkness there, and nothing more.

Deep into that darkness peering, long I stood there wondering, fearing,
Doubting, dreaming dreams no mortal ever dared to dream before
But the silence was unbroken, and the darkness gave no token,
And the only word there spoken was the whispered word, `Lenore!'
This I whispered, and an echo murmured back the word, `Lenore!'
Merely this and nothing more.

Back into the chamber turning, all my soul within me burning,
Soon again I heard a tapping somewhat louder than before.
`Surely,' said I, `surely that is something at my window lattice;
Let me see then, what thereat is, and this mystery explore -
Let my heart be still a moment and this mystery explore; -
'Tis the wind and nothing more!'

Open here I flung the shutter, when, with many a flirt and flutter,
In there stepped a stately raven of the saintly days of yore.
Not the least obeisance made he; not a minute stopped or stayed he;
But, with mien of lord or lady, perched above my chamber door -
Perched upon a bust of Pallas just above my chamber door -
Perched, and sat, and nothing more.

Then this ebony bird beguiling my sad fancy into smiling,
By the grave and stern decorum of the countenance it wore,
`Though thy crest be shorn and shaven, thou,' I said, `art sure no craven.
Ghastly grim and ancient raven wandering from the nightly shore -
Tell me what thy lordly name is on the Night's Plutonian shore!'
Quoth the raven, `Nevermore.'

Much I marvelled this ungainly fowl to hear discourse so plainly,
Though its answer little meaning - little relevancy bore;
For we cannot help agreeing that no living human being
Ever yet was blessed with seeing bird above his chamber door -
Bird or beast above the sculptured bust above his chamber door,
With such name as `Nevermore.'

But the raven, sitting lonely on the placid bust, spoke only,
That one word, as if his soul in that one word he did outpour.
Nothing further then he uttered - not a feather then he fluttered -
Till I scarcely more than muttered `Other friends have flown before -
On the morrow he will leave me, as my hopes have flown before.'
Then the bird said, `Nevermore.'

Startled at the stillness broken by reply so aptly spoken,
`Doubtless,' said I, `what it utters is its only stock and store,
Caught from some unhappy master whom unmerciful disaster
Followed fast and followed faster till his songs one burden bore -
Till the dirges of his hope that melancholy burden bore
Of "Never-nevermore."'

But the raven still beguiling all my sad soul into smiling,
Straight I wheeled a cushioned seat in front of bird and bust and door;
Then, upon the velvet sinking, I betook myself to linking
Fancy unto fancy, thinking what this ominous bird of yore -
What this grim, ungainly, gaunt, and ominous bird of yore
Meant in croaking `Nevermore.'

This I sat engaged in guessing, but no syllable expressing
To the fowl whose fiery eyes now burned into my bosom's core;
This and more I sat divining, with my head at ease reclining
On the cushion's velvet lining that the lamp-light gloated o'er,
But whose velvet violet lining with the lamp-light gloating o'er,
She shall press, ah, nevermore!

Then, methought, the air grew denser, perfumed from an unseen censer
Swung by Seraphim whose foot-falls tinkled on the tufted floor.
`Wretch,' I cried, `thy God hath lent thee - by these angels he has sent thee
Respite - respite and nepenthe from thy memories of Lenore!
Quaff, oh quaff this kind nepenthe, and forget this lost Lenore!'
Quoth the raven, `Nevermore.'

`Prophet!' said I, `thing of evil! - prophet still, if bird or devil! -
Whether tempter sent, or whether tempest tossed thee here ashore,
Desolate yet all undaunted, on this desert land enchanted -
On this home by horror haunted - tell me truly, I implore -
Is there - is there balm in Gilead? - tell me - tell me, I implore!'
Quoth the raven, `Nevermore.'

`Prophet!' said I, `thing of evil! - prophet still, if bird or devil!
By that Heaven that bends above us - by that God we both adore -
Tell this soul with sorrow laden if, within the distant Aidenn,
It shall clasp a sainted maiden whom the angels named Lenore -
Clasp a rare and radiant maiden, whom the angels named Lenore?'
Quoth the raven, `Nevermore.'

`Be that word our sign of parting, bird or fiend!' I shrieked upstarting -
`Get thee back into the tempest and the Night's Plutonian shore!
Leave no black plume as a token of that lie thy soul hath spoken!
Leave my loneliness unbroken! - quit the bust above my door!
Take thy beak from out my heart, and take thy form from off my door!'
Quoth the raven, `Nevermore.'

And the raven, never flitting, still is sitting, still is sitting
On the pallid bust of Pallas just above my chamber door;
And his eyes have all the seeming of a demon's that is dreaming,
And the lamp-light o'er him streaming throws his shadow on the floor;
And my soul from out that shadow that lies floating on the floor
Shall be lifted - nevermore!

Tesla coils do mario



"Twin Solid State Musical Tesla coils playing Mario Bros theme song at the 2007 Lightning on the Lawn Teslathon sponsored by DC Cox (Resonance Research Corp) in Baraboo WI. The music that you hear is coming from the sparks that these two identical high power solid state Tesla coils are generating. There are no speakers involved. The Tesla coils stand 7 feet tall and are each capable of putting out over 12 foot of spark. They are spaced about 18 feet apart. The coils are controlled over a fiber optic link by a single laptop computer. Each coil is assigned to a midi channel which it responds to by playing notes that are programed into the computer software." - source

fun shift

Had a really slow shift at work yesterday. From 13.30-22.00 and absolutely nothing happened. Had I known working would be this easy I would have started ages ago. The height of excitement was dinner and the evening snack around 7. Serve and then clean up! Superfun! I also attempted building a house of cards but it was more difficult than I had anticipated. I'll get it though, not an impossible project. I'm glad I finally have work though. If I'm lucky, I'll get that temp job at GAME as well, as you never know when you work next at the psych ward.

I've (re)started an old prjoect. It's been going very slowly. So slowly, in fact, that I'm starting to doubt it's actually moving in the right direction! I've taken some measures and plan on taking some more. Will keep you (read: myself!) posted on the progress.

There's this book on stress that someone has lying around the student psych clinic. I've been flipping through it and picking out some of my favourites. It's a little satire on the stress hype affliction of our society. Sarcasm is, possibly, the funniest kind of ...fun!

"Eat less fresh food. Eat more things containing preservatives. Preservatives are called preservatives because they help you live longer"

"Apply for jobs that are totally unsuited for you. Keep all the rejection letters to read whenever you start to feel good about yourself"

Tuesday, November 6

Should read some more



Pretty cool poem by Edgar Allan Poe. The Raven.

Thursday, November 1

Job

I got the job! Crazy people here I come...

first shift: 7am Friday 2nd Nov

i.e. tomorrow

Tuesday, October 23

job

My Powerbook has long been neglected. Ever since it was replaced by the bigger more powerful iMac. It makes me sad to say that I've neglected it's beauty and usefulness for far too long. But new times are a coming and it will be the start of a new era for my ol pal the PB 12". Oh yes! I've ordered (or should I say Firas has ordered, with his super apple staff discount! thanks man) a new battery which should kick some life into the machine. Been cleaning up the hdd and preparing it for a clean Os X Leopard upgrade on friday. The new battery will be in my hands mid november. Can't wait for it!

I'm also proud to announce my recent employment by the local hospital. I'll be working as a mental health "assisstant" on the closed ward. Hopefully! I've been bugging them for a part-time job for weeks and today I heard back from them. I'm meeting the lady in charge next week. I'm going to work my arse off this xmas! iPhone here I come! and great summer vacation too! muahaahaha. Mo Moneee fo meeee!

Monday, October 22

animated collage of photos from spain



> click the image above to open it in another window and begin the animation action <

Sunday, October 14

How stuff works!

First off: HowStuffWorks.com

Great website if you're in the market for killing time or just relieving boredom. Does the job well. It's up there on my How-To-Not-Be-Bored list, with Wikipedia and random blog reading. Try it out.
I was reading this particular article about death, namely different ways to go and how painful they are etc. Rather morbid but interesting nonetheless. Does bring the concept disturbingly close to home though, you might want to take a break now and then! ;)

Just realised I read that article on the NewScientist webpage! Here's the link anyhow! "Death Special: How does it feel to die?"

On a heavier note, I weighed myself the other night, and what i saw was VERY disturbing. I don't really care to reveal the exact number but let's just say it was dangerously close to the hundred mark! I've been letting myself go for way too long. It's time to cut back on the fats and hit the gym more often! Seriously! I'm unstoppable, I need to just NOT eat. everytime i start eating i just get way too into it! lol. Not funny! looking at photos from just a year ago when I thought i was big I have grown considerably more "healthy"!

Monday, October 8

The telemarketing beast is dead!

Finally found it! >> Nix.nu

Put an end to the telemarketer reign over our lives! Block your number (sweden only). I can't believe it took me this long to find this service! and it's free! No more damned "free" socks or razors! I do believe I've won the battle (but not necessarily the war) in this matter.

Hoozaaa

Quotes

Not sure who said this but I like it!

- "All that shimmers is not gold"

rings very true.

Also discovered some new music recently. Well, some Michael Jackson revivial and some 2pac revival. Better late than never to discover the rap genius 2pac I suppose. Too bad I discovered him now when he's not with us anymore.

Fuel, are quite good as well. Only heard a few of their songs but what I've heard so far I've enjoyed. They're down the same alley as Goo Goo Dolls, The Calling and the like. Very much my kind of music. Also on the trance side of life: Shpongle

Sunday, October 7

Thoughts on flowers, benches and architecture

Some highlights from my trip to Oslo last weekend. On our way back from the park (where the bench photo was taken) I saw this very interesting looking building and just had to stop and take a photo of it.

Signs that autumn is coming. The red flower is really really red to me, is it you? Anyway, I just couldn't help but take a picture.






Walking home at night

Walking home at night and had my camera with me. Good night shots can be difficult to get without a tripod so I'm limited to places where I can rest the camera, on the ground, on a bin, on a railing. Whatever i can find really. But that usually means I can't get the shot from the angle I want. Which ofcourse is a huge drawback. Need a tripod, badly!




I also realised the necessity of an extra battery back. There's nothing more annoying than running out of batteris when you need it the most. So I'm getting an extra battery pack, quite cheaply too. Battery pack for a Canon 350D, €15 (eBay). Wonder if I can find a tripod too on eBay...